The idea of loading a creative project with a meaning, thus taking away from a viewer an opportunity to see it with your initial impression, has always seemed questionable to me, if that idea wasn’t inherent to a project in the first place of course. When I started with this series I wasn’t thinking about the result or the purpose. A serious gamble bordering with fear, continuous doubt and temptation. But going further and exploring the texture and depth of the shots, some questions arose: why am I doing this, why do I keep doing this and so on. Seemed like the answer is on the surface. It’s all about trust, acceptance, understanding, beauty, stereotypes, complexes. And at the same time about ugliness, indecency, vulgarity, vanity. But these are not my thoughts. They’re a buzzing cloud of the outside opinions, all different in their own right, but which has nothing to do with my own thinking. After the analysis of different creative fields, studying different projects, I decided that at this phase I don’t want to and am not ready to create while constantly thinking about reasons and meanings. Perhaps, that delicate feeling, that is born during the process and heightened after the completion, has no word for it. And I don’t even want to find the word and vainly waste my energy by doing so. I’ll leave it as it is, not fully comprehensible but still so enticing that it feeds my desire not to stop. I called this series “lm rauch” and it’s entirely open to your own interpretation. 2020.